Last Dependency

I am tired of being dependent on people... But unfortunately I don't have much of a choice. I am barely able to get by WITH their help, and now, for whatever reason, they are no longer going to help us out- making it VERY VERY difficult, even more difficult to get by! You think your the only one with financial problems? Im pinching every penny i can, taping and stitching things back together just so they can last a little longer. Im barely able to keep Gas in the car anymore, damnit. I know what my problem is. YOU are my problem. And despite all the crap you put me AND my family through, i still have enough respect for you to not say your name, nor give any clues that could give the identity of this person away. All we need is your help, and now you spit in our face and tell us to deal with it. YOUR problem is that you can't budget your bank account for jack squat. you know you have a family who works their asses off in school, raising a child with one on the way, and a works 30 hours every weekEND- barely bringing in 600 a month when rent alone is 700. But you don't care. You spend it like you have all the money in the world. You have spent years trying to BUY affection, and your youth, but you will never have either of them back, all because of the way you treated my family, including my wife. I really hope your reading this closely and understanding it, because i know how good you are at blowing things out of proportion. I work my ass off. And so far, the only thing i was able to get with our income taxes guilt-free, was a package of new socks. Why you ask? I have been unable to afford new ones for the past 3 years, and have worn them through... I do all i can to make ends meet for my family, maybe you should do the same for us.

I have strongly considered erasing you from my sons life- entirely. But instead ive decided, that ill let him erase you himself. When you let him down, again, and again, and again, he will never belive a word you say. All the promises in the world- he will expect to be let down, and that last time you break your promise, you will hear "Im not surprised you broke your promise. You always do." And it will make you feel like shit. I hope then you will understand what you have been doing to those around you. There is nothing more that i want than my son to hold you in a special place in his heart, but at this rate, itll be in the darkest place in his heart.

Dont start whining or try to throw a pitty party, because we have become immune. Its not our fault what happened, its your own damn fault. Deal with it.

If you dont want to help us because you dont care about us, just say so. Youll never have to speak to us, or help us again.

Im sick of you letting us down. I'm the kind of person who is more honest than most, but in a nice, "sugar-coated" way. I do NOT make promises unless I intend to keep them. I hate letting people down, as much as i hate depending on them.

You let my family down for the LAST TIME.

The next time you speak to us,

Choose your words AND your tone... Very, VERY carefully...

Because More depends on it than you think...