so much on my back, and the weight wont seem to get any lighter. It feels like i cant rest enough, sleep enough, or eat enough. When i finnaly get one project done, another takes its place. Working my but off on the weekends hardly seems worth it anymore. Working on scripts and movies for free seems even less worth my time. I mean, im spending time away from my family for YOUR script, making it just right, and I'm only getting credit. Cash keeps a roof over my head. Not a "good job, buddy!" or a " Thanks!" Im getting to the point where the only scripts I'll doo for free will be a select few, and myself. Ill sell my scripts i like, and keep the ones I love and want to do myself. With the yearly family dvd... im not sure if im enjoying it like i used to. It may be the program, im afraid of it. Its professional, and my editing rarely is professional. Maybe i should stick to what I know, and write, and make goofy, silly shorts of my boy, and put that on dvd. Or just not format it like a movie? Maybe im trying to impress the wrong crowd...
I love my family, but their is little motivation to do this anymore. I'd really hate to be the asshole that charges his family for a dvd of his kid. Thats not me. But it would motivate me to do it and get it done. I simply am to exausted to continue this movie right now. Its not done, but needs to. When it is done, maybe ill feel better about it all and continue.
As of now. No more projects. Finish what i have, then ill consider doing another.
Untill then, dont ask me to "look it over", "make notes" or to "tell you what i think" unless you intend to pony up the dough. It'll all depend on how long it is, afterall its gotta be worth my time right now, because i simply don't have the time and energy to do it for free... For now.
One more straw could break this camel's back.
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