Today, May 27th is my birthday. Today marks the 24th year of my birth, and the day of a loss.
About 13 or 14 years ago, a friend of mine drowned in a pool, at my birthday party, on my birthday. I havent let go if it yet, and i dont think i will. i still feel a bit accountable for what happened. People tell me its not my fault, but i didnt do anything to prevent it. I lost my friend on my birthday in front of me. i dont think anyones birthday would be the same if it happened to them. Ive been thinking about my lost friend for years, i still havent payed my respects to him or anything, i guess its guilt that keeps me from not looking forward to my birthdays. Everyone tells me Happy Birthday, but its not just a birthday. its a deathday to. (If you want to know the Story, Post a comment about it and ill post it.) Wish he were still here man. . . R.I.P Lu'mon.
Its been a decent birthday, yet so much is missing. Like my family. I got used to going to my dads, eating a big delicous dinner, being surounded by a loving family , and scrumcious cake. Now, its staying home, eating a small yummy dinner, having my wife and son here with me and tons of calls, texts and posts on facebook, and maby some cookies. . . im not sure yet, but the day isnt over yet.
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Random Thoughts
As the day rapidly approaches, i feel more exited about getting a year older, but still mourn the passing of my friend . No one asked what happened so i guess i wont post the story on what happened.
On my way to work, i heard a song i haven't heard in years! like in high school years! "we want fun" by Andrew W K. (i think) it brought back a few memories from the clique back in the day.
Who is this equation describing? Do you know them?(8 microwavable deep-dish pizzas + 24 pack of Dr. Pepper - 1 toothbrush and toothpaste = 0 teeth + 40 lbs)
Ha ha!
On my way to work, i heard a song i haven't heard in years! like in high school years! "we want fun" by Andrew W K. (i think) it brought back a few memories from the clique back in the day.
Who is this equation describing? Do you know them?(8 microwavable deep-dish pizzas + 24 pack of Dr. Pepper - 1 toothbrush and toothpaste = 0 teeth + 40 lbs)
Ha ha!
Business
Well aside from the oompa loompas that sang the lolly pop song at work today, work bit the big 'un. Everyone was rude today. That aside, I'm not sure if this would be proper working conditions. . .
okay. to start off, you cant bring your own drinks unless you put it in a cup- which you have to have rung up, ticket on it, name on it, with lid and straw. (that's fine) sodas you have to pay for, and the refills are to be charged as well.. water is free, and that's all that is free. If you don't know, AZ h2o is not good to drink and i discovered why for me. It'll give me migraines quickly! that's all that i can drink from there though is water, so instead, i break the rule and bring my own drink and hide it in the cooler where no one can see it. (kool-aid in a bottle) This I understand....to a point... We mess up on an occasional burger and have to remake it, leaving us with an extra burger. What do we do? throw it away. If i want to eat it, i have to ring it up. It could sit under the heat lamps for an hour (WAY past any holding times) and if i want to eat it, i still gotta ring it up and pay for it. Why? if its going in the trash, its wasted. if it goes in me, you have a happy employee whose not distracted by the rumbling of his stomach. and you obviously have to have money to BUY food there, but id much rather spend it on food that will last 5 days than 5 minutes. (sandwiches anyone?) and i STILL haven't gotten my check yet. (should be soon i hope) next up, whats just started today is they take up our cell phones before our shift. This bugs me. just to the point where it is hard for me to focus on working. cause with it, i know if my phone went off, and if i can at least see what it is, it may or may not be urgent, etc. Without it, i don't know. the one time i DON'T have it ironically would be the time something happens. (if you need me while I'm at work call the store phone, BTW) and now the BIGGEST issue I have so far is the fact I've been working here for a month now, and not once have i seen anyone take a break, nor have i been offered one. when i ask about the break procedure, one guy actually said "break? What break?" and soon found out through a little snooping that a break area doesn't even exist on the property. No table no chairs, no break. after working 6-8hours a day i should ave gotten one for the almost 9 hr shift. (at least sit down)
To sum it up-
no free drinks or refills
no eating old/mess-up food
no phones
no breaks
Someone is quite the grumpy person to make so many BS rules about a business they no nothing about. The gas is killing me, and the big guy says for me to not "run out of gas again" like i did it on purpose by running the streets wasting gas. i go to work home, work , home. i get 20 miles a gal, its 22 miles away and 22 miles back. about 44 miles a day, about 2 gal of gas a day in a 15 gal tank. that's about 7 round-trips per tank. ( my math is awful, feel free to check, i know i must ave made a mistake somewhere.) 40-50 bucks to fill up. so 80-100 $ a check on gas alone- IF we don't go anywhere else. Eh, ill just go pick off another 100 from my money tree in the back yard. . . Ya know. just like every one else.
okay. to start off, you cant bring your own drinks unless you put it in a cup- which you have to have rung up, ticket on it, name on it, with lid and straw. (that's fine) sodas you have to pay for, and the refills are to be charged as well.. water is free, and that's all that is free. If you don't know, AZ h2o is not good to drink and i discovered why for me. It'll give me migraines quickly! that's all that i can drink from there though is water, so instead, i break the rule and bring my own drink and hide it in the cooler where no one can see it. (kool-aid in a bottle) This I understand....to a point... We mess up on an occasional burger and have to remake it, leaving us with an extra burger. What do we do? throw it away. If i want to eat it, i have to ring it up. It could sit under the heat lamps for an hour (WAY past any holding times) and if i want to eat it, i still gotta ring it up and pay for it. Why? if its going in the trash, its wasted. if it goes in me, you have a happy employee whose not distracted by the rumbling of his stomach. and you obviously have to have money to BUY food there, but id much rather spend it on food that will last 5 days than 5 minutes. (sandwiches anyone?) and i STILL haven't gotten my check yet. (should be soon i hope) next up, whats just started today is they take up our cell phones before our shift. This bugs me. just to the point where it is hard for me to focus on working. cause with it, i know if my phone went off, and if i can at least see what it is, it may or may not be urgent, etc. Without it, i don't know. the one time i DON'T have it ironically would be the time something happens. (if you need me while I'm at work call the store phone, BTW) and now the BIGGEST issue I have so far is the fact I've been working here for a month now, and not once have i seen anyone take a break, nor have i been offered one. when i ask about the break procedure, one guy actually said "break? What break?" and soon found out through a little snooping that a break area doesn't even exist on the property. No table no chairs, no break. after working 6-8hours a day i should ave gotten one for the almost 9 hr shift. (at least sit down)
To sum it up-
no free drinks or refills
no eating old/mess-up food
no phones
no breaks
Someone is quite the grumpy person to make so many BS rules about a business they no nothing about. The gas is killing me, and the big guy says for me to not "run out of gas again" like i did it on purpose by running the streets wasting gas. i go to work home, work , home. i get 20 miles a gal, its 22 miles away and 22 miles back. about 44 miles a day, about 2 gal of gas a day in a 15 gal tank. that's about 7 round-trips per tank. ( my math is awful, feel free to check, i know i must ave made a mistake somewhere.) 40-50 bucks to fill up. so 80-100 $ a check on gas alone- IF we don't go anywhere else. Eh, ill just go pick off another 100 from my money tree in the back yard. . . Ya know. just like every one else.
Monday, May 24, 2010
Dig This!
The song this morning is VERY strange for me! (Its stuck in my head, and i dont know how it got there) Its thae song the little lollypop kids were dancing to in the Wizard of Oz "we represent the yada yada yada..." Thats all fine and dandy, but i heard the best way to get a song out of your head is to listen to it a few times and POOF its gone. the problem is i dont have the the song on the computer, CD, MP3, MP4, Cassette, DVD, .MOV, WMV, VHS, Vynal record or in stone. (its old refrence) sooo, kinda stuck ith it today, and maby tomorrow unless by some strange reason a trio of munchkins come in to my job today dressed like the lollypop kids and start singing the soong. (that would be strange but quite entertaining) have fun today thinking of THAT one!
Sunday, May 23, 2010
This morning-
Couldn't sleep well last night. I wonder why that is.- why some nights we sleep like a baby and other nights we barley get any. Any way, this morning I have a different song stuck in my head and it may be unusual for you, but normal for me. "Zombie" By the Cranberries. (I think that's who sings it) Who knows what today will have in store for me.
On a side note from yesterdays "Once In A Blue Morning" post, I was running short on time and didn't have time for spell check. So I am sorry for the awful spelling in that post.
Today is the 23rd of may. Four more days.
The anniversary of one of the worst days I've ever been through.
If you don't know why this is so, and want to know, post a comment here on FB and ask me. It will be posted here on the blog if enough of you want to know.
Today's Song of The Morning is "Zombie" By the Cranberries.
Let's see what happens today.
On a side note from yesterdays "Once In A Blue Morning" post, I was running short on time and didn't have time for spell check. So I am sorry for the awful spelling in that post.
Today is the 23rd of may. Four more days.
The anniversary of one of the worst days I've ever been through.
If you don't know why this is so, and want to know, post a comment here on FB and ask me. It will be posted here on the blog if enough of you want to know.
Today's Song of The Morning is "Zombie" By the Cranberries.
Let's see what happens today.
Saturday, May 22, 2010
Once In a Blue Morning
I would assume many people would love to have this exuse not to go to work - i dont have enough gas, and my check hasent come in the mail yet. - its not like i can take the bus 22 miles, or a cab, if i had the money for either, id put gas in the jeep. we have $4 bucks in our account, and ill need more than that to get there. Calling in is the only thing I can do. I dont't want to, even though I dont like it, we need the $$. Why do we need $$ anyway? we used to do so well with trade back in the old days. Why did we have to go to money? its paper and coin with numbers on it. I dont have $, and nothing to trade, so im boned either way i suppose. No $- no gas-no work- no $- no gas- bla bla bla you get the idea. this sucks. All i CAN do is wait for the check to come in the mail. This is where patience is tested.
Random Greatness
I've come to a conclusion. I called a nearby Sonic (1.6miles away) and found out they need another cook. If you can't put 2 and 2 together, ill be moving my job 1.6 miles away rather the current 22 miles away. In a jeep that tends to be a gas hog, I figure it's the best thing altogether. On another topic however, our checks from TX STILL haven't made it to us, so still, no microwave, shower curtain, sleeping on an air mattress, a computer i brought for school, and quite a large donation from my mother-in-law, a 19" flat-screen TV with a built-in DVD player. (A-Thank You!)
Were scrounging things up to make for dinner, mixing a can of this, a pack of that, and a little bit of something else. Not to bad, cause it really lets my mind wake up and see the inspiration around me. I see so much, yet see so little. The term "Starving Artist" has come to prospective- With having so little is when one realizes true greatness - that sounds familiar, like it were written by an actual philosopher. . .
I am glad we are here. The whole area inspires me in a way that home hasn't. A sense of peace, silence, but still mildly busy. I sense wonderful work within me.
Were scrounging things up to make for dinner, mixing a can of this, a pack of that, and a little bit of something else. Not to bad, cause it really lets my mind wake up and see the inspiration around me. I see so much, yet see so little. The term "Starving Artist" has come to prospective- With having so little is when one realizes true greatness - that sounds familiar, like it were written by an actual philosopher. . .
I am glad we are here. The whole area inspires me in a way that home hasn't. A sense of peace, silence, but still mildly busy. I sense wonderful work within me.
Friday, May 21, 2010
This Morning
This morning has been just like any other. Slow. Every morning I have a song stuck in my head. In my mind, these are songs that will describe the rest of the day. Yesterday, AND today, its " 21 Guns " By: Greenday. A few memories were displayed menaly like a home movie, of when i was younger hanging out with my freinds - still an outcast in my own cliqe. I then was reminded of the people ive lost over my lifetime. Some old, some so young - none seemed to deserve to go under any means exept they did what they needed to do, otherwise they would still be here. They all are in a better place now. I wise man tells me " The body is only a vesel for the spirit to travel, like a vehicle, it will break when the time comes." Maby not to those exact words, but along those lines. Anyway he's right. Our body is like a vehicle, requires fixing, cleaning, and fuel. And it will break down at some point. The problem is you dont know when. You never will. When its time, It's time. Listen to the song. What does it remind you of?
In my mind. . .
In my mind, there are things that go on that not even I am sure what they mean. I had a little inspiration from reading my dads blogs, so I made my own, because I, too think while I'm driving.... Welcome to The Mind of Micah.
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