My uncle John passed away a few days ago, and i graduate college, and am moving back to Texas soon....
Bitter sweet feelings.
I knew my uncle, but not very well. Most memories I have of him weren't very positive... He drank, smoked, and swore like a sailor. He was still family, and I still love him. Since I didn't see him so much, I don't know If I'll miss him, I probably will get to wishing i could hear him drop the F-Bomb a few more times while a cigarette burns in one hand and an iced whisky in the other.
Last I saw him, he was sick, and trying to quit drinking and smoking, and he was so different. I didn't mind being around him. Maybe it was because he was sober, or maybe it was because I was an adult, and he saw me more of an equal.
It got me thinking about passing away, and how I would like to see my life. On the last day of my life, I would like to be able to turn around, look at my "wibbly wobbly ball of timey-wimey stuff" and be able to say, "I regret nothing." I have been around for almost 30 years, and i know i have barely begun to live my life. Still have many years ahead of me, 30, 40, 50+ years, and i look forward to growing old, and being another few decades wiser. More experience in life, and the troubles that come with it.
I was raised catholic, but my faith has somewhat turned to another I'd call my own form of religion. Only Me in this one so far, but i have no intentions of "recruiting" more members. This is for me, and me only. A previous post was about that- the Scientist beyond, and the life lived will be decided on where you go. If I'm a bad person, I come back to hell on earth, and learn how it was to be treated as how i treated others in my former life. If I'm a good little human... Well... It's better than coming back to start over.
The reason I feel the creator as a scientist is simple. Everything can be explained through science. (almost anything) and it is updated often. The universe, galaxies, stars and planets, then all life on earth. Hell, our bodies are science. How we evolved is science. It is hard to look right in the prehistoric eye sockets of a homo erectus and deny all connections to them, and say "I didn't evolve from you."
It's been proven about evolution, from cave men to multiple races and to today. I never liked the idea of "blind faith", it is to uncertain.
Going in another direction, to go off of a few things on my mind...
With my school, I feel as though I should look at the amount of money I owe for student loans...
Then look at my demo reel(s)... Is it really worth THAT much money for this work? Did I learn what i should know to make this Field into a career and be good at it?
(may be a bit controversial)
women want to be treated equally, but when it comes to getting certain things (like a raise, or special treatment) sometimes, some will flirt, and flaunt themselves to get it. Typically, she will get it. If a man were to flirt with his female boss for that, it would be sexual harassment.
Equality in the workforce huh?
Not saying ALL women do that, really its more of the ones who don't mind looking like a piece of meat.
Weed should have similar restrictions as alcohol.
No using while driving, age limit, unavailable at certain days and times.
Guns should have the same as a car.
A license, insurance, age limit, training courses.
I look at ti like this: almost everyone has a car, and accidents happen, but are usually non-deadly.
If anyone had a gun with the courses and license, a crime could be less likely to happen, because a criminal has little intention of becoming a victim themselves, and if they know there's a good chance the people in that store are carrying a firearm, he wont even try.
Thursday, April 24, 2014
Wednesday, April 16, 2014
F*** Money
started to do my exit counseling... and what i have to say is fuck money.
Greedy ass fuckers, i swear. i have 62,000+ in debt tnow, and Im expected to just shit a job or pull 600 off my money tree and pay the student loans? THEN its reccomended i put aside 3 months worth of money as well? I put in the numbers, and it is VERY clear that will be a problem. Lets not forget the doubled student loans now... Capitalized loans. Bullshit. All from the greedy bastards trying to suck every penny from the hard working classes by making them go to school and take out loans, and pay back 62000 in 10 years and still pay that same amount in interest? What interest? I wasnt INTERESTed in your rate... I needed money to go to school, so i can pay back my student loans... How stupid.
I hope these punk-ass bastards choke on their dinner. Not to death, just enough to scare the shit out of them and make them think "Wow, im a greedy bastard. Maybe i should change my ways." How passive is that...
I hate the idea of having to rob banks and shit to pay off a maxed student loan and keep interest down.
other option is to treat it like breaking bad, and use that income to pay it off.
leagaly, i have been given options that will not risk jail time. so theres a plus.
still, the interest rates are still way to high, and if we are to be encouraged to get a better job with an education shouldnt the schooling be easier to obtain, and cheaper to do so? We would have les poverty wouldnt we? less people working fastfood and retail to pay off student loans. ill be almost 40 when my loans will be paid off... How depressing is that? By the time i am able to save money, and make a good living, ill be over the hill.
Ill still be able to prefom my job well and have lots of experience....
Still. Without money, our economy would have to resort to bartering again. Then the 99% come back into power over the useless 1%. Ha ha! All that "work" for that paper will be useless, and the only thing that will get you anywhere is trade of items, and skills. The only skills you bozos posess is sucking money out of hard working peoples pockets. If theres no money, you have no skills, and are useless.
Greedy ass fuckers, i swear. i have 62,000+ in debt tnow, and Im expected to just shit a job or pull 600 off my money tree and pay the student loans? THEN its reccomended i put aside 3 months worth of money as well? I put in the numbers, and it is VERY clear that will be a problem. Lets not forget the doubled student loans now... Capitalized loans. Bullshit. All from the greedy bastards trying to suck every penny from the hard working classes by making them go to school and take out loans, and pay back 62000 in 10 years and still pay that same amount in interest? What interest? I wasnt INTERESTed in your rate... I needed money to go to school, so i can pay back my student loans... How stupid.
I hope these punk-ass bastards choke on their dinner. Not to death, just enough to scare the shit out of them and make them think "Wow, im a greedy bastard. Maybe i should change my ways." How passive is that...
I hate the idea of having to rob banks and shit to pay off a maxed student loan and keep interest down.
other option is to treat it like breaking bad, and use that income to pay it off.
leagaly, i have been given options that will not risk jail time. so theres a plus.
still, the interest rates are still way to high, and if we are to be encouraged to get a better job with an education shouldnt the schooling be easier to obtain, and cheaper to do so? We would have les poverty wouldnt we? less people working fastfood and retail to pay off student loans. ill be almost 40 when my loans will be paid off... How depressing is that? By the time i am able to save money, and make a good living, ill be over the hill.
Ill still be able to prefom my job well and have lots of experience....
Still. Without money, our economy would have to resort to bartering again. Then the 99% come back into power over the useless 1%. Ha ha! All that "work" for that paper will be useless, and the only thing that will get you anywhere is trade of items, and skills. The only skills you bozos posess is sucking money out of hard working peoples pockets. If theres no money, you have no skills, and are useless.
What classifies us as human? - Blog on assignment.
My assignment essay is an ethics request of 5 things that classifies us as human.
One aspect of us being human is taking fellow peoples feelings into consideration before we act. For example, Snorting off a rude comment at a fast food employee belittles them, making them feel un appreciated, and could potentially become hostile. By not taking the fast food worker's feelings into consideration, you can now enjoy you loogie burger and urinade in solitude. Taking in account of how others' will react to your decisions is part of humanity. Lives are much more tolerable when people wave hello to the guy in the cross walk instead of shooting him the finger. A bad mood is like a virus, when someone gets pissy, it is likely they will do something inconsiderate and piss of another person, which does it to another, and so on. The cycle is rarely broken. When I see someone running to a person's aid, when not asked, I feel a part of humanity is restored. Do to people as you would have them do to you. If you are not to apply this logic, it can be said that you are not human. It would be easy to consider a murderer non-human, because they did not care of their victems' feelings of wanting to live...
Fear is also an aspect of our humanity, without it we know no limits, and thinking of others is unlikely. Every creature feels fear-- So supposedly, this aspect just is a sign of being a living being.
To enjoy works of art is a wonderful human aspect. Art can make us feel a number of emotions, by showing the beauty, ugliness, or the unusual of the world around us. To be overwhelmed by a symphony, is such a thing only a human can comprehend. A line from a movie comes to mind with this; I, Robot. Spooner says, "Can a machine turn a canvas into a masterpiece? Can a machine write a symphony?" Sonny replies, "Can you?"- Not every human is capable of creating a work of art, but we are able to enjoy it.
Our ID (inner desires) can be a way to classify us as human. This is what we want, more than anything else in the world. Total bliss to us. This can be related to us as caveman days, where we did what we wanted when we wanted to do it. If we saw a piece of meat we wanted, we could club the guy eating it, and take it for ourselves. Our ID is our primal instincts, which is how most animals already act upon anyway. What makes us human with our ID, is our control over the ID. With out that control, We could do whatever we wanted and be completely primal again.
Freewill- We can do anything we want, but we think of the consequences before hand. Most humans would classify throwing rocks at a lion pride to be a very bad idea. But throwing rocks at a tree is better. The tree wont do anything but stand there, but the lions will maul you. We CAN do what we want, but our ability to control ourselves and make logical and emotional decisions of consequences is what makes this a human trait.
Humans tend to reason emotionally and logically. Thinking with your mind, and with your emotions. An example of to explain this would be: You have two candidates to fill one job. One guy has lots of experience, and is a great model employee, and the other has a little experience, and has a bad habit of being late. Logic says to go with the Experienced model employee, but emotional reasoning says to go with the less experienced late guy because he is your nephew's friend... We are the only species that does this. Animals go on instinct,
One aspect of us being human is taking fellow peoples feelings into consideration before we act. For example, Snorting off a rude comment at a fast food employee belittles them, making them feel un appreciated, and could potentially become hostile. By not taking the fast food worker's feelings into consideration, you can now enjoy you loogie burger and urinade in solitude. Taking in account of how others' will react to your decisions is part of humanity. Lives are much more tolerable when people wave hello to the guy in the cross walk instead of shooting him the finger. A bad mood is like a virus, when someone gets pissy, it is likely they will do something inconsiderate and piss of another person, which does it to another, and so on. The cycle is rarely broken. When I see someone running to a person's aid, when not asked, I feel a part of humanity is restored. Do to people as you would have them do to you. If you are not to apply this logic, it can be said that you are not human. It would be easy to consider a murderer non-human, because they did not care of their victems' feelings of wanting to live...
Fear is also an aspect of our humanity, without it we know no limits, and thinking of others is unlikely. Every creature feels fear-- So supposedly, this aspect just is a sign of being a living being.
To enjoy works of art is a wonderful human aspect. Art can make us feel a number of emotions, by showing the beauty, ugliness, or the unusual of the world around us. To be overwhelmed by a symphony, is such a thing only a human can comprehend. A line from a movie comes to mind with this; I, Robot. Spooner says, "Can a machine turn a canvas into a masterpiece? Can a machine write a symphony?" Sonny replies, "Can you?"- Not every human is capable of creating a work of art, but we are able to enjoy it.
Our ID (inner desires) can be a way to classify us as human. This is what we want, more than anything else in the world. Total bliss to us. This can be related to us as caveman days, where we did what we wanted when we wanted to do it. If we saw a piece of meat we wanted, we could club the guy eating it, and take it for ourselves. Our ID is our primal instincts, which is how most animals already act upon anyway. What makes us human with our ID, is our control over the ID. With out that control, We could do whatever we wanted and be completely primal again.
Freewill- We can do anything we want, but we think of the consequences before hand. Most humans would classify throwing rocks at a lion pride to be a very bad idea. But throwing rocks at a tree is better. The tree wont do anything but stand there, but the lions will maul you. We CAN do what we want, but our ability to control ourselves and make logical and emotional decisions of consequences is what makes this a human trait.
Humans tend to reason emotionally and logically. Thinking with your mind, and with your emotions. An example of to explain this would be: You have two candidates to fill one job. One guy has lots of experience, and is a great model employee, and the other has a little experience, and has a bad habit of being late. Logic says to go with the Experienced model employee, but emotional reasoning says to go with the less experienced late guy because he is your nephew's friend... We are the only species that does this. Animals go on instinct,
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