Tuesday, January 10, 2012

I should have noticed the dingle-berry in my idiot-flakes this morning, but it all tastes the same to me today.

today feels a bit of betrayal, but more of being demasculated. Thats what i want to rant about.

The holidays stressed me out. i saw all the stuff that my son got, and looked at what i was able to get him. a Thomas book, and a toy gutar i found in the dumpster. Thats all i could afford to get him. All the other gifts made him happy, but of corse showed me that i couldnt get that for him, or anything else he wants. I work my ass off, and i have almost nothing to show for it. With all the gifts under the tree, i got 2. A gift card that i used to get motor oil for the car, and $40 cash that i used for gas, and laundry. this made me understand that of all the hard work i do, little is noticed. Under apreciated.
I spoke of this with my wife, and she suggested i take a portion of our income tax (after bills of corse) and be selfish. Buy what ever i want within that price range. That lifted my spirits a bit.

2 comments:

  1. Yes, you always have to make sure you take care of yourself and your family. Take what is yours, don't wait for someone to hand it to you. That's something I'm still in the process of learning myself. Don't worry man. Don't give up. You're going to make it just fine. Remember that. Don't doubt it for one second because if you do, then you are only cultivating those things into happening; you're bringing it upon yourself. Always express what you want, and make it something great, positive, and useful. Hang in there cuz!

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    1. Thanks Az. You always have been inspirational to me.

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