Tuesday, September 10, 2013

Bored beyond.

I am bored. So bored in fact, I cannot seem to keep interest in class, games and even the kitchen. Getting bored with games, is whatever. It has happened many times before, its the same old thing over and over. Nothing new.
With class, it may be the new room we are in, and some content seems to be bland where it used to be "over flavored". This can also be because of my exauston level is higher than last term. Working 5 days instead of the usual 3 is good for the $ but bad for my education. I am tired of being busy because of routine.
I have been bored with the same music for a year, bored with the same movies and series for a while, and it didnt concern me untill today.
I don't want to eat anything. Food seems boring to me now. Eating something different dosent even seem possible. I have been trying foods i thought i hated, and actualy liked, and tried ones i thought i hated and still do. (which isn't a long list)
I dont know if its mental or what. Nothing sounds good to eat.
When I'm bored with food, i know there is a problem.


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Everything i do is the same shit over and over. Bored with so much, and its annoying. I want to sleep because something interesting may happen in the dream.
Writing involves creativity, and im bored with writing ATM. havent done it in a while, because i was bored with it, and turns out im STILL bored with it. School isnt always supposed to be fun, i get that. This can also be because of it being the second week. And im tired of all the same games and movies for entertainment. I think i want something new, something different. I feel so lazy too, so tired, i dont want to got to work, but i have to to pay rent and all. by the time i get home from work, i cant spend any time or money with or on my kids because im so damn exausted. My jokes are worn, my words are too. Im thinking im wasting my time getting this degree now. I enjoy it, untill this term. It isnt as fun as last term. this could also have something to do with the amount of sleep i get at night. My job is boring now too. Drive 45 min in rush-hour traffic, Make orders, count chicken, drive 30 min home in the dark. Spend a little time doing homework, get 5-6 hours of sleep, get up at 730 and start the day again. (i dont work all day, i know it sounds like it, but i dont) My talents i have/had are tapped, havent used them, and lost / started to lose them. 
I cant get a taste for anything, and i feel to lazy to try something new in the kitchen. Snacks, meals, desserts, everything. Music- the same shit over and over and over. I have bad taste in music apparently except for a few bands to a few of my younger peers. things get too crazy to fast and i liked to be sitting watching the world go by. Now, im getting up with my weak legs and trying to catch up with the Flash, while im in a rascal.

i  need a shake or something. i was dropped from my dreams, into a pool of quicksand nightmares.
feel like im wasting time and efforts.
Gotta do something, but first, gotta find time to do it. then i can relax, and do something out of the ordinary, and maybe put a little spice back into my days.

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